I wonder
What if I was already dead?
I wonder
What the world would be like
Without me -
No doubts it
Would never miss my
Existence.
What's it like
To lie cold in the ground
Knowing you were not ever wanted?
Always unwanted -
And I'd just pretend
That I don't like you
For you to never be afraid
For you to never run away.
Let me and my feeling be
Invisible
So they'd be
Unbreakable.
And noone would ever notice them
Well, noone notices them now.
I wonder
What the world would be like
Without me -
And no doubs it
Would stay the same.
So I am not afraid -
I'll dissapear
I'll fade away.

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